Let's Go

Do you have this to face? Is something looming in front of you that you KNOW you really must do, but, oh dear God, you do not WANT to do?

Jump in and do it.
Do it NOW.
Do NOT hesitate another minute.

I think of one friend in particular, whom I shall not name, who I want to say this to. Sooner begun, sooner done, my sweet friend.

No, this is not fun. In fact it is VERY not fun. But I have just completed the 2nd round of chemo - that's one third of the way through with that! Yes, I have way more of this trip in front of me than behind me.

But I have some of this trip behind me. I knew I could not analyze this situation too much or I would develop analysis paralysis. I RAN in abject terror towards that which frightened me so I could conquer it. I refused to run in abject terror away from it - lest it should conquer me!

I tire easily. I don't necessarily feel very well at any given moment. But you know what? I am fighting. I am standing facing my fear, and I am going to kick butt and take names in this battle. Including I will call on those who attempt to "help" without knowing what they are talking about to stop talking about that which they know nothing.

I have found some amazing gifts here too. Gifts that I didn't fully realize I had already, as well as the gifts of kindness from others.

You will find these gifts too. And you will be the warrior princess to put Zena (or Ziva) to shame!!

This post really is directed, targeted, aimed at my sweet friend. I don't see enough of her and I love her dearly. Fight, my sweet girl!. Fight with me by your side. Yes, the road is going to be difficult. Is it easy now? I think not!!! And this road, this road of intentional battle leads to success. Oh I will be the victor here. I want you to be the victor as well!

Okay, so I felt pretty crummy for a couple of days. I can and do realize that I am feeling a bit better at a time. There are tricks to help you through the worst and you know, I have been in far worse situations than this.

My faith, which was pretty good, I think, has been further strengthened. It has been strengthened by testing, but so? Isn't that how we strengthen any muscle we have?? Of course it is!

I am surrounded by love, uplifted by prayer, cushioned in God's love and protection. How could I not want this for you too, my sweet friend?

I walked your path for a while - as short a while as possible!! Oh, how it frightened me. It was a drawing out of this journey that I simply could not deal with. It was far too uncertain. I do know, that this road I chose COULD fail me too. I know that. But I have a far better chance on it than the other.

Do not fear to face these demons, for demons they are. Stand and face them, face them down. They appear frightening as long as we let them. We have the power and the strength. They are nothing.

And you, are something special.